Day 39: Life is War

No statement has ever felt more true to me than this one at this very moment. As pessimistic as it may sound, this is the only way of thinking that has actually given me some sort of bona fide anxiety relief. You start out in life without a care in the world and this is when you are spoon-fed the foundation of your knowledge crucial to you later on in life, even if at the time you are unaware of just how crucial. I’m talking about ammunition and strategic thought processes given to you freely by family, educators, etc. The older you get, the less sugarcoated things are, the more responsibilities you carry and the more your decisions can affect your surroundings. You find out that not many people can be trusted and that even you yourself cannot be trusted, an all out war where it’s each for his own. One false step and you can end up in a minefield, causing you unnecessary damage that could have been easily avoided if you didn’t have your head so far up your own ass. That’s the thing with wrong moves, crawling back is a bitch if it’s even an option and if you so happen to have people under your command then you are the square root of fucked times the number of people with you. So pace yourself, take a moment to calculate the consequences of your actions instead of immediately running mindlessly to the front lines, guns a blazin’. We’ve all seen the movies; these men are usually the first to die. Meanwhile, don’t over think yourself to the brink of madness either. You aren’t getting anywhere if you reside in your mind. Risks are necessary, but make sure what you’re fighting for is worth the blood, sweat and tears. Many things are not. Sometimes when you’re on your stomach, worming your way through the filth filled trenches, it’s hard to see past the mud, but that’s when you have to keep in mind that we all have to crawl before we can walk and walk before we can run. If you play your cards right, chances are you’ll even fly. At the end of the day, it’s you against the world and the world is rarely forgiving so don’t be stupid.