This phrase has become a mantra for me since Friday, July 23rd, which will now be etched upon my memory as the day my precious Nikon D90 got stolen from right under my nose and I couldn’t do a damn thing. I wish I could explain what happened, but I can’t and frankly, I rather not think about it. As soon as I realized it was gone, I was in a state of shock – being parted with my camera seemed as implausible as being parted with my very own eyes. The excruciating chill caused by this shock is slowly thawing, which now enables me to actually discuss my loss, but I don’t think I’ll ever be the same. I feel completely violated.
My best friend told me “as long as you have your health… that’s what matters. A camera you can replace.” I have been holding on to these words like a life preserver or maybe sanity preserver is more of a fit description. He is right, I know he is because it’s absurd to value material things in such a way, but this ‘material thing’ in particular was my numero uno creative outlet.
Today is day four and I still haven’t shaken the impulse to walk towards my camera bag, wanting to shoot something – at first figuratively, then literally. I think I’m experiencing the phantom limb syndrome.
That being said, I realized how incredibly lucky I am to have certain amazing people in my life and if you are passionate about something, the way I am about photography, you find the means to overcome any obstacle separating you from what you love.
So rest assured, I should have a brand new D90 by end of week and I’ll be damned if anyone so much as tries to breathe on it.
All photography projects will carry on.
8 comments:
your too dramatic at least you are lucky enough to have the financial capability of purchasing another one rather quickly, while most people would not have that option, if you could barley afford to keep your self afloat in life then this might call for such dramatization
i don't believe i mentioned how i was going to get my new camera.
actually i don't have the financial capability to purchase an other, but you are right, i am very fortunate... fortunate to have a loving and supportive family and friends.
please don't mistake my attitude for my writing style, i know i write rather dramatically, but it's more fun that way.
thank you for your commenting though.
Mr. Anonymous Asshole ,
Why does it make a difference if she has the means to buy another one ? The point is , she can be as dramatic as she likes because something she
adores was STOLEN from her.
You have a big mouth, and karma is a biatch.
hey Anonymous, keep your bitterness wrapped in half assed glib writing in the masturbatory gash you came from
Anyone who has ever had something stolen knows what your feeling! Your words resonate with me, it's such an awful feeling to have something you worked hard for and enjoy so much stolen from you. The camera can be replaced and thank goodness you are lucky to get a new one but the feeling of loss never goes away. Hold the second camera tight!
that's what these assholes do simon, go from room to room, spitting out bullshit between their decayed teeth, purveying scraps of malignant worn-out slander. impotent hatreds grown rancid in the pissy idleness of internet era. they employ their last quavering energies in hurting each other a little more. in destroying what little pleasure they had left. their shriveled carcass containing not one solitary atom that was not absolutely vicious
i really do have amazing friends... thanks guys!
Wow, that so sad. I think that some people might not understand that a tool that you work with is like your arm, your eyes, your mind, your insparation. Losing it is at first such a shock and then the pain. The pain of not having it anymore but also the pain of guilt to not be able to protect it. Yes, is dramatization, yes, a new camera can be purchase, but it will never be the same. How can you get back the excitement like the one that you have when you got this one, is not possible. But is life, shit happen, and you just have to move on. I think Celia reaction and dramatization is very understandable. I wouldn't be able to imagine how Neil will react if he got his camera stolen. I can just says that it will be a terrible bad scene.
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